I am the border walker.

It is very strange to put down. Mostly because of the reflex response that people will give. Simply put, I am not well liked. Odd?
Okay first reaction is that it isn't true. Next question would be why not? Valid in many cases. A more cautious concern might be that there is some psychological reason. I find the last one intriguing.
It would be beyond me to explain my situation. One of my earliest memories is that of my mom telling me that I was different. People don't will judge me by how I look. It was utter nonsense when I was younger. As I aged it became clearer.
I'm attempting to keep this coherent. It would be all too easy to get lost in the minutiae of it all. I also don't want to come across as a victim of things beyond my control.
Okay one thing is, I am grateful for this knowledge. I watch, often cringing at the people that are the but of jokes and never know it. Watch as they often attempt to make in roads that may never be achieved. I think I occasionally envy them. But again this goes away from the thesis here. Which is that I seem to be openly disliked.
I am an extremely young looking person for my age. Hell its almost vampirish. This seems to be very of putting to people. It may be a youth culture, but I seem to be the point of ridiculousness.
The second thing to ensue is the attempt to immediately classify me. Which can be difficult. I'd say I've androgynous features that can cause a good deal of confusion.
That's me in a nutshell. And at the moment I am going through a rough time. And the thread is lost and I'm not sure anyone but me reads this so I'll spell check and leave.

No real clue

Well it's been awhile since I posted something here. Seems I'm not entirely enthralled by this site either. The access, the lack of readership, I don't know. The other problem I'm encountering is this: My ideas are coming to me when I've no capacity to write them down or even record them here.

I've had several good dissertations in my skull and yet nothing for here. I feel like I'm running on empty. Silly yes, avoidable, quite possibly. Perhaps I'm just trying to reach a level of comfort here. I don't know. and for all my love of the spell check, I've not used it in the last 2 blogs.

Well I've some bills to pay and guess I'll surf a bit.