Saturday

     Good Morning.  Had my coffee.  Even another morning smoke and soaked the soles of my feet with the sweet dew of the grass.  Delightfull.  Today shall bring what it wants.  We are having a heat wave. 
     Coming up on the anniverssary of my discharge from the hospital of my heart surgery.  Could not have imagined myself doing this at all.  Other than that all is well this morning.  2 cups of coffee, now must plan day.
     Tomorrow, Sunday, shall reusme normal habits.  Food shopping bright and early.  Oh and just a note, dang game is not patching at all this morning, crap happens.  Oh and spell check does not seem to be working here at all. 

This morning

      Well kicked my 4 day weekend off.  Said I to myself I'm on vacation.  Kicked off my slippers and went wading in the dew soaked lawn.  House is stll here.  Even had a morning cigar, which I'm prone to....on vacation!

Bump.

     So much for the good feelings.  Sister fears she may be losing her job.  She's been off for a year with this cancer battle.  That has been won.  However, the job.  Seems to be a wrench as to when she can go back.  Legally they only have to hold her position for 1 year.  When she called, she works for the town, boss said it had to go before the town board which meets a good 8 days after her year is up.  She had no luck with personell.  She will call back tomorrow.
     Also explained our money plight to them both.  How I had to use up my money to pay this months house bills.  Plus a little of this Friday's check.  After that I'm tapped out.  Brother in law needs to speak to his family.  Oh the drama, oh the drama.  Trust fund, no more need to be said.  We are sinking and yet I am calm.
     He's asleep, she'll be up all night worrying.  And somehow, I'm fine.  It is an uncanny thing really.  I cannot really describe it to you.  And this 4 day marathon of being home....ugh.  Not looking overly forward to it, yet not dreading it.
     Finally admitting to myself, that life is a bit sweeter, I'm taking little joys more than usual.  Even the ability to walk.  Maybe that is where it comes from I don't know.  I've always been unflappable.  One day at a time.
    Spent some time trying to connect with some people too.  To no avail.  Luckily I have myself.  I wonder if I'll ever tire of my own company.  I hope not.

Monday and Tuesday morning coffee

     Not sure what it is.  Can't believe it's just because I've off on Thursday and Friday.  Can't be.  Only because they'll be home too!  However, really psyched for it, had a good day yesterday.
     Dealt with Monday bullshit from people yesterday hating on poor Monday.  May I never join their crowd.  Work was all right, went smoothly enough.  Co-worker was in an off mood, and I just didn't even care.  Hell even lied to my face, does twitter make you lie? 
     Had a nice Rocky Patel Edge last night on the way home.  Made some turkey breast, baked taters, and some frozen french cut string beans.  Unfortunately didn't sit well with sis.  Still suffering side effects from radiation.  One being that veggies giver her......colon....a bad time.  Enough there.
     Even watched Hell's Kitchen with her and bro in law too.  Not to shabby. 
     Set for today, berries rinsed off for my oatmeal.  Managed to pay house bills with an additional $200+ from me.  Oh yeah, that's why I took off, little 2 day weekend plans have now busted.
     And yet I'm still in a good mood.  Must make plans for my 4 day weekend.

Monday

     Happy Monday.  Coffee in mug, gray skies with promise of rain, but, Happy Monday.  Weekend was alright.  Saturday took a very grand walk.  Grand?  Grand because I could do it.  I've denied it long enough, the heart surgery has finally changed part of me. 
     Although I've never been one to take the little things for granted, I'm even more gratefully.  Also I forgot simply how much I love just walking.  Altogether on Saturday, not at once, but all together definitely a couple of miles.
     Morning was, well I discussed that prior post.  Remember having an egg.  Saw that no money was being deposited into house checking account.  This is something that will have to be dealt with.
     Unsure I set out for a grand adventure on Saturday, without any idea or money.  Cashed some coins in.  Walked.  Bought some Honest Tea, I like that stuff.  In fact I need to buy some this very week.  Had lunch at this little cafe near me.  Healthy place that I like.  Have curious things and all good.  Think I had some kind of portobello and I forget what else burger. 
     Told the young lady to just make me something that she would eat.  If I can get away with that at a place, and it's good, never a problem.  Whole wheat roll, lettuce, avocado slices, burger thing of course, and fresh salsa, awesome.  It was however pricier than I would have liked.
     I don't care what the time says about posting but it is catching up with me here.  Must marinate some stuff, breakfast, prepare my lunch, oh yes, and it isn't show up to work in your bathrobe day.  Not yet at least!

Saturday again?

     morning.  no shift key today, let's all just deal with it.  woke up feeling out of sorts.  cup of coffee, back to bed.  then decided, after a heat wave of course, a nice hot shower was in order.  delightfull thing about saturday showers.
    So few people are watering there lawns when showering you remember what water pressure feelis like.  taking my time.  there's plenty of hot water.  no need to fuss about the hair.
     been trying to post pretty regularly on the heart blog, doing okay.  still in shock how much is still stored by my few remaining gray cells
     was a rough work week for my standards.  just a year out of heart surgery and worked a solid 45 hour week.  that doesn't count the 5 hours came in early but didn't charge for mind you.  not bragging, because, not everyone has a job right now, and yes have had many 80-90 hour weeks in my past.
     just think it was a feat for someone like myself that's all.  having second cup of coffee in my bathrobe.  am now very glad that next thursday and friday or days off.  think they are needed.
     okay that's about it.  coffee is getting a tad cool, may have to microwave it.  and cannot hide in this room all day.  oh and breakfast, yes must get some of that stuff too.

Saturday morning

     Just sort of sitting waiting on the day to unfurl.  It's late in my eyes, 7:23 in the morning.  Not really sure what to make of today.  Sun is out, car needs oil before I start it, must get walk in, oh, and buy new milk for brother in law.  What? Yes of course it is coffee related.  Apparently the milk went bad.  Odd how seldom that happens with my half and half, if it ever did happen.
     Coffee is wonderful.  Used to drink it on Saturday mornings with a young lady from Ohio.  Okay, well, technically that is a story I've yet to tell. 

COFFEE GOOD!

Wednesday

     Morning.  Sitting here waiting on the shower.  Second cup of coffee.  Did some posting on the heart blog.  Kind of liking the practice again.  Sad no one will really read it, but then it is for me no?
     Rainy day.  Looks to be a very busy week.  Wednesday is usually a busy day at work.  And I've an important job to get out.  Should be fun.  Had some sort of panko Tyson chicken for dinner last night with a noodle dish.  Home made in essence, bow ties boiled, little olive oil, garlic powder, parm cheese.  Nothing fancy.  Good thing I eat a salad at lunch every day.
     Anyway, hope it clears up today.  I'd like to grab a cigar for the ride home.  Should get some over time too.    Brother in law didn't have any house money at all, so I'm $400 short in paying house bills right now.  And no I don't have it.
     I get tired of sacrificing everything for round here.  Got the biggest tax refund of my life, just under 1 grand, to me that's big.  What did I do.  Supplemented the house hold of course.  Oh well.  I'm a man, and that's what men do.
     Well drink my coffee, shower, breakfast and out the door I go.

Saturday morning

     Morning.  Coffee is of course good.  Last night didn't pan out as planned.  No movie and was home by 8.  It was nice however.  After work bought myself a nice cigar.  Wandered towards my new water spot, packed.  Grabbed a nice fish burrito for dinner and just relaxed.  As I said nice.
     Budgeting is a little better this week, unsure if I'm getting first installment of money that is owed to me. Only bad part is I have no actual plans.  Part of me is saying I need to get to the heart blog this morning.  We'll see.
     Had to run out already this morning for half and half.  Just had to get 2 chocolate chip banana nut muffins 2.  Bakery does a very nice job; in that the muffin is by no means offensively sweet.  So is very tasty, especially with my coffee.

Made my mind up.

     A wee bit after 6 in the morning.  This may seem a little harsh to the uninitiated, but I've decided to go out tonight.  Made my mind up after my brother in law informed me a few moments ago he had no idea what we're doing about dinner tonight.  HUH?  I'm the damned cook.  It's Friday.  Sister probably wants pizza even though it's not good for him.  He wants his beer and watch wrestling.  and they both want me home to serve them.  So.....
     Will take morning pills.  Then put aside evening  pills.  Go to work.  Have dinner after work.  Go to independent movie house after work.  And to heck with them.  That will only change if something catastrophic happens here.  Let's see what happens.

Mellow

     I simply cannot believe how much I am enjoying the Heart blog; or blogging again in general.  I just like blogs.  Always have.  Even have a penchant for blogs that no one's posted to in years.
     I am irritated a tad at the loss of the my space blogs I had.  Even when I could get in there, there were many missing from my first to last.  Oh well.
     Was a nice day.  Lunch was edible.  Did take out tonight, had a meatball parm hero.  Found out one of my cousins is getting married on a weekend I had intended to go on a short road trip.  No real big deal. Must go and that is all there is to it.
     Home life is what it is.  Actually really proud of my budgeting for this week.  I may have a few hundred left over when the next pay cycle comes about.  That is of course should I get the first installment owed to me by brother in law and sister.  Otherwise it will be just one hundred, but hey it's more than some people can claim.
     I've cemented no real plans for this weekend.  Just take it as it comes.  Of course that is when we all spend any free money we have no?  And I've a project I need to complete.
     Next week with be the 1 year anniversary of my Heart Surgery.  I've taken a lot of photograph's.  Wish to make a book of them for my cardio dude and the surgeon.  Not a big deal.  I run the damned copy center.  I think I will re-read some of the first blogs here and try to clear up some loose ends.  Why not.  Started them 2 years ago so may as well.  That's about it right now.

     Funny how I want to organize this and be cohesive.  Did 2 entries last night on the heart surgery one.  I will say that I made an attempt to resurrect some of my stuff from my space. Thought it would just be kind of trippy. 
     Upon entering I received a warning that my anti virus had found infections and immediate action was required.  Wanted me to desperately click the little gray box in the center of my screen.  I smiled, I know a woman at work that crashed her computer by doing just that.
     CTRL, ALT, DELETE, stopped page, shut down computer, rebooted and ran scan.  Yeah I'm all good.
     Was a good day yesterday I think.  Got a pretty decent nights sleep.  Old patterns are re-emerging once again.  I do need to get a little more pro active on some things.
     The old caterers where I work are providing lunch for us.  I work in a corporate headquarters and we have a cafeteria.  Long and short the one catering was okay, won't eat at the new one at all.  I have always been a believer in bringing my own food anyway. 
     We still do printing for this caterer/deli.  In fact they've opened a second store right in my town, I've benefited a few times.  I am looking forward to the free lunch.
     One of my co-workers, a man in his late 60's I believe, damned old school hard worker.  Had triple bypass surgery over the weekend I believe.  Manager is being somewhat closed about it.  I've no complaints, figure he was the same way last year when I was out with my heart surgery..
     Hopefully the weekend will be pleasant.  Looking to get some more outdoor activities in.  It is 6 so I'd best be running along. 

Wow.

     That says it all.  One of the things I do like about rambling on a blog is the perspective you can get by reading years earlier.  The title should be changed tho, that was me this is me.
     Recently I tried to find even older blogs on my my space page, years have been deleted, can't blame them.  Going to make an effort to salvage what I can and post them here.
     As I continue with my own self growth I'll try to bring some needed cohesion to this blog.  Not saying it will work but should be an interesting juxtaposition 3 years later.