Bump.

     So much for the good feelings.  Sister fears she may be losing her job.  She's been off for a year with this cancer battle.  That has been won.  However, the job.  Seems to be a wrench as to when she can go back.  Legally they only have to hold her position for 1 year.  When she called, she works for the town, boss said it had to go before the town board which meets a good 8 days after her year is up.  She had no luck with personell.  She will call back tomorrow.
     Also explained our money plight to them both.  How I had to use up my money to pay this months house bills.  Plus a little of this Friday's check.  After that I'm tapped out.  Brother in law needs to speak to his family.  Oh the drama, oh the drama.  Trust fund, no more need to be said.  We are sinking and yet I am calm.
     He's asleep, she'll be up all night worrying.  And somehow, I'm fine.  It is an uncanny thing really.  I cannot really describe it to you.  And this 4 day marathon of being home....ugh.  Not looking overly forward to it, yet not dreading it.
     Finally admitting to myself, that life is a bit sweeter, I'm taking little joys more than usual.  Even the ability to walk.  Maybe that is where it comes from I don't know.  I've always been unflappable.  One day at a time.
    Spent some time trying to connect with some people too.  To no avail.  Luckily I have myself.  I wonder if I'll ever tire of my own company.  I hope not.