Roll out the barrel. Reality creeps in.

      I cannot momentarily post from home.  Such is life.  You'll all live I'm sure.  Thoughts are a tad disorganized, was not feeling well at all this past weekend.  Spent it in bed, except for me making myself soup.  Of course this meant no cleaning inside the house could occur.  But that's not why you're here.  Or is it.

     It occurs to me occasionally that this blog becomes oddly directionless.  There is no captain at the wheel so to speak.  Very odd.  I'm sitting here in December with a lot going on.  I'm recapping my life for an audience I seldom hear from.  Yet I know you exist.  So what is the purpose.  Well at least there's no charge for admission so I really owe very little.  

     The elderly co-worker of mine just handed me 3 sugarless cough drops.  As I am at the very tail end of this thing I caught.  In a mere 3 weeks....damn.

     In a mere 3 weeks it will only be my manager and myself here.  Not fun.  I will miss my co-workers.  As will he.  But still for me it's different somehow.  Or at least that's what I tell myself. I don't want to be here anymore.  I haven't for awhile now.  But at the end of things, it's time to move.

     Of course that's easiest typed.  Easier said than done as well.  What next lies on the horizon is surely a mystery for me.  This is not where I wanted to be.

     For the 4th or 5th straight month no house money from the brother in law.  Oh the hilarity of it.  You see according to his brother and sister they've been concerned that I could just toss his ass out.  Now they've a new problem.  Their only hostage is dead.


     Look I did what I could to save this house.  To my own detriment.  Stupidly I admit to it.  But it's over.  I don't have to worry about having heat or electric or cable if she comes home.  She's not.

     Furthermore there is a hole in the roof and on the other side the roof is collapsing.  Oh well.  I'm getting myself in order and that's what counts. My 47th year should be a better one....hopefully.

     Well that's it for today's entry.  Just a rambling one.  Blame reality.  It crept in.