Trying to straighten this out and find the thread

         Okay the line is entirely convoluted.  As am I with the order of things.  I started reading from where I got the flu and forward.  Things are muddled but we will sally forth.

     You see I'm at odds as to the times when she was in the rehab center.  Brother in Law assures me it was all this year.  I'm not so sure.  But it's been busy.

     Okay the knee injury is decidedly after the flu.  See if I can work this out on the fly.  Far as I can remember she had 3 rooms so 3 visits.  He says 4.

     I can recall the first one somewhat.  That might have ended with the trip to the hospital.  Nothing memorable about that one.  This may have been the missing link.  The one that she got sent back to the hospital.  Upon being released it was recommended that she go to rehab.  She refused.  Got here home.  Half an hour later I called the ambulance.

     The second was about the time of the flu and knee injury.  She'd actually made a friend, dude in the room next to her.  He got her more involved in the center.  She got to know some people there.  She always had the knack for making friends.

    Okay I think I've pulled some threads together.  We'll start with her coming home on June 26 tomorrow.

Off the cuff.

     There is a part of me, that is just not content at all.  To many little things left hanging.  Much has been left torn asunder.  Even now at 5:30 in the morning there is a discontent within me.  Just sitting on the edge of my scope, far enough so I cannot quite determine what it is about.

     The weekend was pleasant enough and worth an entry unto itself.  Work seems okay.  But there is something.  I cannot get a firm hold of it and it distracts me to the utmost right now.  Loose threads here.

     Weekend, lawn, bills, car, car, and car.  And yet that isn't it.  They just help to compile the general malaise.  Yes perhaps that is the word I want instead of discontent.  I really do not know.  Sort of just flowing this out in a few paragraphs, exercising not exorcising my inner angst.  Yes there is a difference.

     I strive better on the edge.  Don't we all?  When we have nothing to go for we all tend to get lackadaisical and lazy.  Maybe that's part of it too.  I'm letting myself fall into the norm of this house again.  I'm not molding I'm being molded.  That must stop.

     I'll make a note.  When I come home tonight no computer, a smoke and yard work.  And that is where we shall start.  One has to start somewhere you know.

Friday morning coffee

     It's Friday.  Doesn't seem to mean much at the moment, but then it is 4:20.  Least my coffee is good.  Work week is all but over, seems like we're getting the checks settled.  Was out at 4:30 last night. 
     Never did make that dish I mentioned.  Maybe this weekend.  Brother in law made burgers and tater tots last night.  Good job.  Sister has told me it's my night to cook.  We'll see about that. 
     Wednesday had been a bit of a nightmare with one of my coworkers.  She's one of those that has done it all.  Always has an opinion and always right.  Ended with a discussion of how the Outback was a steak house and she never heard of Peter Luger's.  Don't have the fire in the belly this morning to give you the full gist of it.
     Another person out yesterday, so I was paired with the aforementioned person to show them how to deliver  packages.  Actually worked out okay.
     I spent to much money on bullshit this week.  Tonight I'm taking steps to incorporate procedures to avoid it.  Gas is a necessity, no problem.  Cigars, actually they weren't the culprit.  Of all things it was food.  In fact I don't know what I'm doing for lunch today.  And some snacks....oh yes the snacks.
     Every so often I get a craving and indulge.  Well the snickers with peanut butter has left me a tad heavier than I wanted.  It's been a two week indulgence.  Happily tho, it slides off when I right the ship that is me.
     Rainy weekend or so I'm told.  Supposedly tomorrow the kitchen is to be cleaned by the 3 of us here.  We'll see huh?