First Blog Here

So here we are. Why?

Well to be completely honest, I like the blog concept. I read blogs, sometimes the older the better. I like writing them too. I have one on myspace, been going on for about 1 year. Thing with myspace is it is rather cold.


My cousin got me started there. I was not impressed. Very shortly afterwards my cousin left. "It's not my crowd, to young." And there I lingered for quite sometime. I'd add people I didn't know and found nothing all to interesting. I read other peoples blogs there. I'm just not a very computer social person. Which is odd as you shall learn eventually.

I've 3 younger cousins on there that I know of. I've had little contact with them at all in recent years. They've a whack of people on their lists. And am fairly certain they read my blogs. The thing that annoys me the most about the myspace crap is the crap. This week alone I've had over 50 emails about adding this or that and its all ad's. Not my style. For a long time I didn't want to get to personal there. Because family reading and such. Paranoia isn't the right word but it'll do. And the lack of any good feed back there.

So after some thought I decided to try this site. Let us see what befalls us here.

1 definite positive here is that fact that there is spell check. I wonder if anyone will read the ramblings. But then there is that freedom I spoke of. Anonymity of it all I reckon. Okay a bit about me.

I'm 40 now. Don't feel it and certainly don't look it. I had a wonderful 9 and half year drinking binge. It was the last 6 months that made me someone with a problem. After 11 years of keeping it very under control, I can enjoy beer socially. I never go past 3 beers. Besides and quite honestly beer was never my favorite.

It was more my gateway drug for wine and hard liquor. Those I could never limit myself on. Eventually we'll get into that I figure. I live in New York State. Relatively close to New York City. I go out quite frequently both alone and with company. I was never taught that you needed others to enjoy life. Good teaching I think.

I now live with my sister and brother in law. It's quite a chaotic situation. I refer to them both as adult children. They want to be taken care of. Lost my mom about 2 years ago. I will always be proud that I was here to help, I was sober, and she was my friend. Funny thing about that. She died a few months after my sister got married. There is a picture of me sitting next to an empty seat. Carol, the young lady I was infatuated with, didn't show up.

I work full time at a company with a truly soul sucking job. But it is a paycheck. There are some characters there as well. In fact one of my co workers spends a good deal of time on myspace as well. But hey its a paycheck for now. I am also a frustrated writer. Am constantly broke as of late. And have begun to prepare a few schemes to make money. And no, none of this ever makes me wish I'd not stopped drinking.

So who knows where this will go from here. Will there be a clear cut path? Will there be drama, comedy and such? The only thing there won't be is such lines like "I can't talk about this here" If i can't, I just won't mention it.

Well that appears to be it. For now I can only promise that I shall post at the minimum of 1 time a week. So that would be next Thursday. but it shall probably be more frequent. Thanks for reading.