Effort wasted?

     Morning, 5:30, coffee, 2nd cup.  Ever tell you I enjoy reading blogs.  A lot.  Must be one of my favorite web hobbies.  So I imagine must a few others do the same.  Is that what has me distracted?  No.
     It actually always interests me the way they often end.  Suddenly life enters, situations and such.  I always am left with the feeling of, this.....this is when people really want to read.  Not always the pablum of happiness or unreal situations.
     On the other hand maybe it is what I am experiencing now.  Mayhaps I've been to hard on those people.  It actually takes some coherence to write down stuff when so much goes on.  I will try.  Don't look for any big revelations, especially in this post.  I'd say sorry but it would be disingenuous.
     October has always been a poor month for me.  Health, Money, or worse yet, the anticipation of it.  Seldom has something ever not happened.  Okay 1 year it started with a glancing blow in September.  On a lost site where I blogged freely I wrote about it.  Gone now I fear.
     I'm not so sure what else is going on.  Yes I am, goodness gracious the rubbish I transpire to spew forth huh.  Financially, personally and household, my back is to the wall.  I am pinned up against it, no relief coming up anytime soon.  Housemates are very unhappy, car needs work, and must thing about another one.  Oh and to boot the dog may be ill.  Or it could just be the weather and full moon. 
     Seriously never had an animal so affected by weather or the moon.  We'll see.  If she doesn't eat tonight there may be a problem.
     The other thing is I'm not out of shape but definitely overweight.  With the medication I take to keep heart rate down, it is very difficult to do with just exercise.  That and of course I've been going through a bit where I am eating like shit.  And using the vending machines at work.  What? Well I simply don't know how the rest of you don't get by with just 2 bags of Famous Amos cookies.  So that is in the least controllable.  I'm taking steps.
     Actually I'm down 2 pounds already, so it is a good start.  Yes men do worry about their weight.  Occasionally.  Other than that I'll try to be here more often and clue in and such.  Peace.