Which way from here? A very throw it at the wall and see what sticks entry.

     Really do wish I knew the answer to my title.  Other working title would be Vacations suck.  I'm here more for sanity at this moment.  Sleepless night for me.  A lot of bullshit coming down the pike.

     My sister will not be working for at least a month, if not loose her job altogether in the end.  She makes the most money in this place I am interred.

     Brother in law.  He is a burden that has been put around my neck and worked round to the spot in between my shoulders that I can not reach.

     I'm trying to make the best out of this.  Even politely sat down last night and with my sister told him he needed to speak to his family.  He has a trust fund.  He is not allowed to have much.  Not allowed to know how much there is.  He is not allowed to speak of it.  

     He quickly shouted down his usual that he will...he will... he will.  The last time I mentioned we would need help was 2 some odd years ago when sister first got cancer and I was just out of hospital.  His response was similar.  As well as realizing he could drink a six pack of bud light a night.

     He also said he'd get a second job.  This I would like to see.  Does he really thing it would be that easy?  

     I'm just rambling at this point.  Been wrestling with my anger all night long. So now I shall have company here for me daily on my vacation.  Not a moments peace.  Being accountable.  I'd mentioned going out East for myself.  Guess who wants to go.  Really?

     And yes, I'll take her along.  Feeling badly and hoping to cheer her up.  Oh I'm sure there's a word for it.

     In the meantime, to get by for a little.  I'll see what I can personally sell off.  The only thing I am guaranteeing is that I will not bankrupt myself for them yet again.  I need to keep some self preservation for me.

     Thanks for listening.  Let me give you a brief description of yesterday.

     Gray dreary day, early phone call for sister to not come into office.  Off I go, shopping, and truth be told I wanted to hit the cigar lounge.

     The dude who I know during the week now, is a pal I haven't seen in awhile.  Also there is something else.  There was some kind of show and on Friday he essentially left a large humidor with about $1,000 worth of cigars in his trunk.  They found out on Sunday.  They're hoping to be able to resurrect them.  Cigars can be forgiving.  So there's that too.

     There wasn't much else about yesterday.  Staunching the bad news.  Waiting on brother in law to come home, get angry, start drinking.

     I mean seriously, dude your wife just got really terribly mistreated, spend some fucking time with her.  The irony I feel as well is this.  If they hadn't gotten married, extended this house a little.  I actually could have kept it.  It was paid for.  No home equity over my head.  Yeah I'm rambling.

     So today I'm unclear on what I'm doing.  Morning showers I'm told by the weather dude.  Partly cloudy.  Staying home will be Hell.  A lot of get me this and that and crap.  Okay I really just need to get a grip on myself.  But am feeling better.  Perhaps there is something to just blogging.

     A very throw it at the wall and see what sticks entry.  NOW THAT IS A TITLE. Copied and pasted.

     In the end it will all work out one way or another.  Not quite so terrible.  I always say some strife is good for change.  Who knows maybe this will be the kick in the ass my sister needs. Who knows?  
     
     Today?  Well today I definitely want  to do some clothes shopping.  Maybe some yard work.  Clean out the old car, yes it is still in my driveway.  Need to clean up in house too.  Thank goodness I can keep busy.  And I think I may know why I couldn't sleep but that I'll keep to myself for right now.

Later.