Just thinking and rambling.

     This is totally out of line with the timeline I want to create.  Or sought to create.  But just feels right.  Lot of thoughts passing through me just now.

     Part of one says start a new blog.  One of those fresh New Year ones.  Where I talk about stuff like health and money woes.  That part of me gets shouted down.  How boring.

     Went to the lounge today.  Was staying for a short time.  Fairly crowded.  No real good spot from which to watch the game.  My usual pal was there.  And that is where I stop.  Pal?

     I'd say more like nodding acquaintance. Just don't feel the connection or I'm just not following anymore.  Mind you the other 4 people were dominating the room with their discussion. 

     Sorry guess I leave this here and now.  Sister was feeling badly and bleeding.  The bleeding is from the cancer.  She's needing her nebulizer again.  Of course she's smoking.  She may be catching pneumonia again.  Oh sorry, the bleeding can also be from a bladder infection that comes and goes.  Aren't you glad you asked?

     Having lost the thread I could just delete this and you'd never know.  But let's see where it can go.  If anywhere at all.

     Just think that I'm being more done with my Sundays involving the lounge.  I know I need a second job.  And I suppose the imagined friendship is ending.  It's an odd thing.

     I've seen it coming for awhile.  I did belong.  Life happens, you loose routines and people just sort of forget.  That is not friendship.  I've a best friend who I can not talk to for a few months.  When we do talk it is like time has not passed at all.  That is the template, no matter how poorly fitting, I put there.

     It is definitely time for some changes in my life.  I'll drag you along as long as you'd like.  This week I'd like to come up with some short term goals.  Some personal, some public.  I want to attain them.

     I must also get back to the gym. Oh have I lost control of the exercising again. And I'd like to register for another 5K walk again.  Different winery this year.  That is a goal I can tell you about up front.

     This time I am going to raise money for it.  This time I am actually not going to put it all up myself, but ask people.  You know the sort of thing where it is $1 a mile.  But that would be something at least.  And then afterwards.  Hopefully not make a quick exit alone.  Stay a bit.  We shall see.  There a glimmer of something bright.

     Okay I think we'll get back to the time line again.  Work, fridge delivery, stuff in general.  Plus I've those other topics.  I take little notes here and there.  I've also got an entry in the draft status, need to do something with it.  Alright peace out.

-later