Good Morning

Well good morning. It has bee quite awhile. The things in my life have really played with me recklessly. I'm sitting here at 6 something on a cold Saturday morning. I'd forgotten about this place. But October hit me and hit me hard.

October has never been a good month for me. To begin with, it contains both my dad's birthday and the date of his death. Sad yes, tragic no. For some reason the change of season, it's merely summer to fall, affects me.

Sleeping habits change, my heart does some funky things. If I'm going to be late with a bill, it will be in October. And in today's climate that says a whole lot no?

This year started early. The early warning shot was me blowing a tire in the last week of September. No car harm and it is only money, but it started there.

During the first week my manager was away and I was in charge. No great deal, only 1 or 2 mis-haps which I had to answer for. When I tell you I had living nightmares in my sleep. The ones where breath was short, I was being screamed at, and knew it was a dream. One dream in where I was fired. Made for a very long weekend. Yes this I blame on October. Oh and it was no great big deal, just thought I'd drag that in.

At one point my manager had asked me for my e-mail address. I gave the main 1. A mistake. He had it. Why was he asking for it?

Come to find out, I cannot actually make a correlation here, I had more readers of my other blog. And no my manager never emailed me. 1 was a friend request from an ex co-worker. I could go into him at another point. On his page was someone from the legal department.

This caused a great terror in me. You see, I was used to silent readers. Even cousins who did not converse with me. But co-workers current and ex? It was a strange violation into my place of anonymity.

Realizing that this doesn't all seem that terrible, a lot doesn't when you have to write it into coherence, try it.

But I am here, and now must wonder if I will stay. I want something like a picture blog. I've as of late been enamored of my silly childhood. Can you put pictures here?