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     Spent a good deal of time going over my expenses.  Was a killer month.  Luckily there's no one really to buy Christmas gifts for.  Because I am broke until the 31 of December.

     Well I will have $100 to live on until then.  I can often see why most people panic over money.  I admit that my credit card bill was sky high for me.  That however is not an ordinary occurrence.  Just a lot of bills.  There was an additional Dr. bill, well office visit.  Haven't gotten to the actual bill yet.  Or should I say haven't received it.  

     House bills?  Well I put my deposit in.  And an additional $20 for the food shopping.  Brother in law says he'll put his house money in once his trust check clears.  Mind you he got paid last week.  So we're a bit tight there just now.  This Friday he owes 2 payments.  We are far beyond the point where I can just chuck in extra.  As I type I need $400 some odd dollars of the next check just to pay bills for me.  Tis life.

     I can see why as an adult people feel time flies faster.  I think it is summarily tied to pay.  You have to wait and plan.  So that leads us to the question: What if one has no job?  I think that is to simple of a question.  It must be deeper than that.  Because a lot of people do not have jobs and time flies for them.

     I think it has to do with the sheer feeling of being responsible.  You then have to think and budget.  In a society where we have become very 'Got To Have It Now' we have lost our ways.  No one plans anymore.  Must have instant gratification instead of delayed gratification.

     I've had this conversation often times before.  I usually try to boil it down to the difference between want and need:  For example

I want an alfa romeo spider.
Versus
I need a car.

     The need is never as sexy as the want.  That is a key component.  Delayed gratification.  To few people practice it anymore.  And this current crop of new generation don't understand it either.  Sad but true.

     It is part and parcel to the age we currently live in.  I remember the time before all this.  Before debit cards; atms; cell phones; internet; color t.v.  These are as archaic a concept to this generation as the horse and buggy were to me.    

     Some how I must pull a Christmas dinner out of myself.  I must make merry.  And oddly enough, I can and will.

     I'm sitting in my cold house.  Sweats and flannel with a bathrobe atop.  And I'm comfortable.  Yes the wolf is restlessly still on the door stoop.  I'm hoping maybe he'll eat my brother in laws brother and sister.  Just a poor joke.  

     I priced a play station 3 today.  Pretty reasonable I thought.  Was under $300.  Beats the original price.  But that was before I did the bills spread sheet.  Now I'm glad I didn't jump on that.  Again difference between want and need.  I want one badly, I miss my video games.  I need to have money to pay bills.  One is more detrimental than the other.  The need should usually win.

     Think I'll post this today also.  What the Hell.  Hope you are staying warmer than I.

-later.