Saturday's coffee

     In the middle of my first cup of the day.  Sun is shinning through the window and skylight.  Ahh coffee....you tell me all is well with the world.  At least for the moment.

     I've no plans at all this weekend.  Save that I spend as little as possible.  Money is still extraordinarily tight.  I've given thought about going to the local food bank.  If it comes to that.  I always say when I donate I'll be there to collect one day.  Who knows, maybe the day is soon to pass.

     No idea how to do food shopping tomorrow.  I've nothing.  Huge bills on my Credit Card from previous trips.  They've nothing.  I could take from the house but there is little in there even.  Then there's tomorrow night.

     The conference call with brother and sister.  I simply cannot wait for that.  I will admit this to you, I don't see much of a change for me.  As I have stated I live within my means.  If I had $200 bucks a weekend then I'd have $400 saved.  But that's me not them.

     I need to explain to them tomorrow what I'm willing to buy.  Food.  No soda, they like 2 mountain dew six packs.  No $6 box of doughnuts.  None of it.  This needs to stop.  They're going to think on the breakfast run.  I've eggs, milk, bacon, and pancake mix in the house.  I think they'd be able to think of something.  

     Last night was typical.  Let's see my sister called me at work again.  Anxiety attack, I offered to stay on the phone and talk her through it.  The root cause came out.  She was out of smokes could I leave early to pick them up for her?  The answer was no.

     See the idea is to get there before brother in law.  This way he doesn't know.  After I came home I warned her this was the last time.  Long story short the topic of dinner came up.  Of course they wanted take out.  I had pasta that I made the previous night.

     Sister wanted meatballs with a side of fettucini alfredo.  I was like WTF!  He in his maddening desire to appease her checked the bank account.  Found that I'd taken $20 out.  She said for mountain dew.

     Well then it became a lesson in stupidity.  He said okay 2 dews might be $5 where's the rest of the money.  She claimed to have given it to me.  Oh that won't do.  He asked me.  Wish he would have asked the obvious question.  That would have been, where's the other $10.  Oh well.  She wound up having rice krispies for dinner.  Think he heated up some of the left over pasta and had some.  I mean I made a full pound damnit, it's going to be eaten.

     That paragraph above is ugly and I'm sorry.  The point is there was still $10 left unaccounted for and he couldn't put it together.  Those are the moments I feel bad for him.  Though I'm glad no one went out to buy food.

     It's going to be tight.  I really don't know if I have enough money to pay the house bills this month.  Let alone mine.  We'll see.  Tomorrow night should be interesting.  As for today.

     Today is sunny out.

-later