Stress?

     It's about 2:30 Monday morning.  I'll try to get back to sleep after this.  A very stress filled weekend.    

     Wound up taking $20 more out of my savings and $50 out of the house for food.  Didn't help to much.  Brother in law is stressed beyond belief.  Sister asked what happened between us.  I said a small matter.

     She wound up telling me he felt he wasn't contributing enough and that I was about to kick him out of the house.  Oh that wouldn't do at all, I mean kick out the only other income?  Really.

     When I finally spoke to him it was the other way.  He'd had a talk with my sister.  She's been doing little to nothing.  She's sat on her disability paper work since October.  He's fed up.  He's really considering just walking out.  Part of me doesn't blame him.  Part of me calls him a coward.

     I spoke to my sister.  She started some paper work.  Then they found out that the social security paper work had passed.  The deadline for information was Dec. 13.  Hello February.

     I don't have money to pay either my bills or the house bills this month.  Shall be fun.  Oh yes and the phone call.  Never happened.

     His brother and sister said they'd call Sunday.  No time given or any such consideration.  I made dinner.  Everyone ate.  Sister felt ill and could not continue paperwork.  I knew that would happen but just didn't want to believe it.

     Went to bed around 9, was tired.  Was up by 11:30, it's 2:30 now.  Been having some odd nightmares lately.  Dog woke me up to go outside.  Sort of.  Can't really explain that one well.  I was having a dream where I had to identify dogs.  In my half wake state I kept seeing silhouettes in my doorway.  Finally roused from my sleep it was the dog.  

     I did some cleaning up in the kitchen.  Half cussing myself for letting so much go.  There was a time where I'd been ready to just up and leave with all my possessions.  No so now.  I've spread out like them.  And this house is atrocious.  So I'm directing my energy to cleaning for the next 3 months.  Think we may last just that long.

     Tomorrow I'll probably just have some light post, seems how I go no?  Oh well...

-later